Ambitions and happy-ever-after-dreams.

Ive been pondering. Yes, i know its a scary thought but bear with me!
I was watching telly yesterday and this woman (well when i say woman, she was this complete chav who looked like a bulldog from Birmingham) and someone asked her what she wanted to do with her life. Fair enough question, i thought, until she opened her orange face and said the word 'naffink'. I was like WTF!?!?! how can you not have any ambition at all!! I mean, ever since i was tiny I had ambition. When I was little i wanted to be a Doctor, a Vet, a teacher, the biggest pop star the world has ever known or even a world famous actress. Then as i got older and I realised how much studying a doctor, a teacher and a vet had to do that flew out of the window. With this faded the notion of pop super-stardom as i realised 'fuck that! there is no way i am being in the same industry as Madonna. no way Jose.'.

So with those shocking revelations left only one option. An actress. I dont know why ive always wanted to be an actress. Maybe because i enjoy being the centre of attention. Christ, that sounded big headed! Forget drugs, sex (ok that one doesnt really apply!), alcohol Id rather be on the stage. The idea of stepping out of my life for the course of a play or the duration of a film into the shoes of a character has always seemed like heaven to me. Pretend games, being someone else.

I think Ive finally, after 15 years of deliberation and umming and aaahhhing I think Ive decided my vocation in life. Look out Hollywood!!! Here I come!!!! :D

Lots of love Chums
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